only eight years then (omg his bday is ten days after mine) THERES STILL HOPE
Ok so like can someone tell me how old jacky (FIR) is??? I keep seeing he’s 19 but like HOW???
AND ALSO IS HE SINGLE CUZ DAMN DEM EYES ♥♥♥
Hey it’s Izzy the developer here :D
I’ve just changed the theme, opinions???
Hi I’m Izzy and I help out with the technical side of imagining-bands :)
I’ll get right on it, it’ll probably be on the chaptered fics page
Aww ill work on it soon :)
Thank you so much love :)
Omg omg I love you for following this blog ♥
Thank you! And thats a secret… jk I don’t know how many more ill write
Aww thank you so much! And yea writing it made me cry a little too :s hehe
Kayla’s been in a coma for a week now. The baby is still in intensive care in the pediatric department. She still doesn’t have a name. We all just refer to her as “the baby”. I’ve been at the hospital every day, running back and forth between Kayla and her. It just seems like I lose every woman that comes into my life.
Today Tino was flying in to help with everything. Stephanie’s been taking care of the kids, trying to keep them occupied, but they still want to come here every day. The boys always ask when they can see their baby sister. It’s heartbreaking to tell them they can’t.
Today was one of those days. They came into Kayla’s room and immediately took their normal seats; Lorenzo at the foot of her bed and the twins on my lap. After about a half hour of silence Lorenzo looked to me.
"Dad, when are we going to name the baby?" he asked. I felt a pang in my chest, it was something me and Kayla had to talk about was what I told him last time he asked that.
"I don’t know" I replied.
"But Dad, she needs a name. If she doesn’t have a name, then she’s not a real person, right?" he asked. I shrugged.
"I don’t think so. But we’ll name her, don’t worry" I said.
"When?" he asked. I shrugged and he sighed and rolled his eyes. He was just like Kayla, always wanting a definite answer, never a "maybe" or "don’t know".
"Tino’s coming today" I said, trying to cheer him up. He gave me a small smile, while the twins were ecstatic. For the first time in a week I smiled. Stephanie walked in just then.
"Finally, a happy face around here" she said.
"How was the baby?" I asked.
"She’s okay. They didn’t tell me much, just that she’s steady but she’ll be on the respirator for a while until she’s able to breathe alone" she said, walking over to me and picking up Aidan.
"Nothing new" I said under my breath.
"Hey, she’s alive. That’s a blessing right there" she said, pointing a finger at me.
"Yea, at what cost?" I said aloud, realizing what I’d just said. Her eyes were wide and she was sucking in her bottom lip.
"Something that brought you and Kayla together… even if-" she said, catching herself. She looked down at the kids who were watching us intently. I knew what she was going to say though. Even if it was her last few minutes.
"It’s my fault. I should’ve told her the truth" I said, bouncing Ean on my lap.
"Yea, you should’ve. But in the end, it would’ve been the same result, so don’t blame yourself for that. Just… be grateful that because of the lie, you got to raise two beautiful boys with her" she said. I looked at Aidan and saw Kayla’s features, making a tear fall from my eye. I quickly wiped it away and coughed.
"Umm, did Tino call you yet?" I asked. She nodded.
"Yea, on my way here, he said the plane had just landed. So I’m going to take the boys to go get him, okay?" she said. I nodded and handed Ean over to her. Lorenzo walked up to me right as she was leaving.
"Daddy, when is Mommy going to wake up?" he asked. I took his small brown hands in mine and looked him in the eyes.
"Let’s just hope your daddy is taking care of her" I said. He nodded and gave me a hug and kissed my cheek before he left. I got up and walked over to Kayla’s bed and sat on the side. I watched her chest rise and fall with each pump of oxygen, then looked up at her heart monitor. It was the only thing that gave me hope right now.
"Kayla, please wake up. The boys need you. Our little girl needs you, she needs a mother. I fucked up, I know. But this isn’t punishment. This is torture. I’m so sorry for everything that I put you through. I love you so much, Kayla. I swear to God, if you leave… I don’t know how I’ll survive. No, forget me. Lorenzo. You’re all the family he has left. He needs you, because that kid is great. He’s gonna be something special, and you need to be there to watch him grow into that person. I just… Please come back to us baby, please" I cried. I bent over and kissed her cold forehead when someone knocked on the door.
"Mr. Carlile, we’re going to clean her now" a nurse said. I nodded and walked out of the room. I sat in the chairs outside with my head in my hands. I kept thinking about the baby, and soon found myself in the pediatric department. I grabbed my gown and gloves and walked in and straight to the back. I stared down at her, now with a tube attached to her stomach to feed her. Her hair was more visible; a light brown in contrast with her darker skin. Her tiny, wrinkly fingers curled up, as well as her toes.
"Mr. Carlile, you know you can touch her, right?" a nurse told me. I looked up at her surprised.
"A-are you sure, she won’t get sick?" I asked.
"No, you’re wearing gloves. But sometimes it’s better, interaction. It makes them feel… wanted. It gives them a sort of motivation. At least that’s what I’ve observed" she said. I looked down at my baby girl and slipped my hand through the circle on the side of the incubator. I put my finger up to her tiny hand, which was only a bit bigger than my pointer finger nail. She instantly grabbed it, her fingers barely wrapping around the top of my finger. I let out a breath and felt a smile form on my face.
"It helps when you talk to them too. That whole ‘the baby likes to hear the mommy’s voice’ thing works for the dad’s too" she whispered at me with a smile. I nodded and swallowed hard.
"Hey baby girl. It’s your daddy. If you ever opened your eyes, you probably would know that. You’re such a fighter, my little warrior. I’m so proud of you. And I’m so proud of your mommy too. She’s amazing. You’ll love her. And you know, she’ll love you even more. And so will your three big brothers. In a couple years they’ll probably be so overprotective of you and you’ll say you hate them. But you won’t. You’ll love them" I said, stroking her tiny hand gently with my thumb. Tears formed in my eyes. as I spoke.
"You’re so beautiful… Belle" I whispered. I removed my hand from the incubator and turned to the nurse.
"Hi, can I have one of the forms? We’ve decided on a name for the baby" I told her. She nodded and handed it to me. I sat down and filled it out, then handed it back to her. She smiled when she saw it.
"Well, someone needs their card changed then" she said. She walked over to the desk and pulled out a pink slip of paper and a purple marker and started scribbling. When she was done she examined it and taped it to the end of the crib.
Belle Kay Carlile.
I smiled when I saw the name. I said goodbye to Belle and made my way out of the room with a smile on my face. I removed the gown and gloves and threw them in the trash as I made my way back to Kayla’s room. Tino should be there by now with the kids. The boys would love to know the baby’s name, Lorenzo will be so excited to know it’s the name he picked. I walked into the room and found no one inside. I shrugged and sat at the side of Kayla’s bed and grabbed her hand again.
"Hey baby. I just saw our little girl. I named her. Belle Kay Carlile. Hope you’re not mad, but Lorenzo fell in love with the name and it had such a powerful meaning. And Kay, for you, because you’re my world. I can’t wait for you to see her, she’s absolutely beautiful. And she’s a fighter, like you too. You’ll fall in love with her in an instant" I said with a smile. Suddenly I felt a tightness on my hand and looked down, to see veins slightly raised in Kayla’s hand.
"Kayla?" I whispered. I looked up and saw her eyes flickering. Then there were those beautiful brown orbs I’d been dying to see for what felt like a hundred years.
"I need a doctor in here! My wife just woke up!"
aww thanks for the love babes but i can do it :) i swear you guys are the sweetest!!!
Im actually going to try and write it since i have like a half hour of free time (even though i have a massive headache right now lol)
So like im at 630 followers right now… i have an idea of something that I wanna write next but I won’t do it until I get 1k followers :s
I saw another blog do this and I thought it was really really sweet and inspired me to do this as well (creds to gaydayparade) send me your birthday (off anon) and ill put it on my phones calendar when it comes up ill send you a happy bday message (and your present will be a promo shh) ♥